What am I supposed to do now?
I had come back to New Zealand with my heart set on serving on another Discipleship Training School (DTS). Disappointment sunk in when, upon arrival, I found out that they already had enough team members and didn’t need me to help.
I was not expecting this at all.
I wanted to be involved in discipling and training young people. I wanted to be on the mission field.
Instead, it felt like I was being benched; made to sit on the sidelines.
I faced the reality that serving in missions was not exactly what I had thought it would be.
Before I came to do my own DTS, I had gone to university and earned a 4-year degree in graphic design. I didn’t have any intention of leaving home, or doing anything related to missions.
But God interrupted my plans, and I came back to serve in YWAM.
I signed up to be a missionary. I thought my days of sitting behind a desk were over. But there I was, disappointed and in a dilemma.
What was I going to do now?
As I considered what other areas I could serve, I felt God ask me a question.
“What have I given you that you can use to serve others?”
My first thought was that I could sing and play for worship, but that wasn’t an option to serve in full-time.
God asked me another question: What other skills do you have to give?
At the time, our YWAM base was trying to establish a media department and hoping to find people to serve full-time.
“But God, that isn’t what I signed up for.”
I was resistant to the idea because it didn’t fit the image of what I thought “being a missionary” was.
How could I be a missionary while sitting behind a desk?
But I trusted God and I saw how my skills could fill the need.
During the first few months God gave me a major shift in perspective. I realised how limited my view was of what being a missionary looked like.
God showed me how the work I was doing was still reaching people and making an impact for His Kingdom.
Today, I’m sitting in our media office sharing powerful testimonies that reflect God’s character, important biblical truths, and inviting people into greater knowledge and partnership with Him.
Justine Pohorski - Media Team