On Friday afternoon on my Discipleship Training School, we were headed to community outreach.
As I jumped into the van, I hit the the rim of the door—and gave myself a concussion. I regained consciousness quickly, but my brain was still a bit fuzzy.
So I had to take it easy for a few days.
On Mondays we have Community Night, where everyone gathers for worship and often a guest speaker. I really didn't want to miss out, but I also knew deep down that I needed to stay in my room. I kept fighting that thought, even though I knew Holy Spirit was nudging me to stay.
Then one of my roommates asked me, “Why do you want to go?”
The truth was, I doubted that God would show up if I was by myself.
I was afraid of missing out on Him in that atmosphere. The fear became so real that I began to cry. My roommates challenged me to have an expectation that God is who He says He is. They challenged me to believe He is not just already with me, but that I would encounter Him. They gave me with questions to specifically ask God, and then all left to Community Night.
Spoiler alert: God showed up.
He encountered me. In my room. All by myself. He answered every question. He spoke to me, and I heard Him, in my thoughts and in pictures. No one else was around, the mood was not set as a worship service, yet I had communion with God.
I know this may sound simple for some, but sometimes I can so easily buy into the lie that Holy Spirit isn't a real person. But He is omnipresent. Always with me. He is faithful to His promises. And He just wants to meet with us. It can sometimes seem like He is present only in the distance, and the distance can look like a mystery.
But I discovered that if I look at what's right in front of me, it's just as beautiful—and I dare say sweeter—than chasing what's on the other side.
After fours hours, even when my roommates came back, I wasn’t bored with God.
I didn't feel absent from His presence or that I missed out. In fact, I knew I had communion with Jesus like I couldn't if I had gone.
He wants to reveal Himself in community with others, but how sweet and kind is He that He desires to meet with us individually as well.